I've sat here with this page open so many times over the last few days only to just close it out of pure frustration. I think I'm just at a loss for words, or rather, I'm at a loss to remember how to string them together into a coherent sentence. I guess that can happen when your life does a complete 180? So many emotions running through you, it's impossible to describe them all. I'll make a valid enough effort, though I can't promise it'll make much sense.

It's difficult finding a place to start, really. I could take you through it on a day by day basis or even a state by state basis, but I fear it'll just end up with me rambling endlessly and I know how quickly I'll lose your attention if that happens. Well, if I haven't already. Moving on.

The moment that sticks out the most from the past week or so is the show in Florida. It wasn't anything about the show in particular, but more so about the day after. We kind of broke away from everyone to be by ourselves for a bit. Of all the predictable places he could have taken me, I have to say that I wasn't expecting to be brought to a beach. He even went as far as to cover my eyes until we reached the perfect spot in view of the ocean. It's little things like that that I wasn't prepared for. I don’t want to say that sitting with him was surreal because, as much as it seemed like it, I could feel him next to me. I was aware of how close he was and how every time he touched my skin I got goosebumps. There are not enough words to describe the close perfectness of that day. I won’t even try because I know I can’t do it justice.

Florida also marked the end of the tour for Maroon 5. I must say, they have quickly become a favorite of mine. Two words. Adam Levine. He’s the cutest kid out of all of them, I think. On the last night of their show, John went out and joined them on stage for ‘This Love’; it was a sight to see. Twelve guys on the stage, all with a guitar. It was amazing. Then later on in the show, when John was performing ‘Wonderland’, Adam and a few of the others thought it’d be funny to run out on stage with nothing but black boxers on and WONDERLAND written on their bodies. Mmm, talk about quality entertainment. I was a happy girl that night let me tell you.

So, currently we’re in Kentucky. I’ve been fighting the urge to wear my ‘Getting Lucky in Kentucky’ t-shirt mainly because I wouldn’t want people getting the wrong idea. They can form their own opinions without my help. Well actually, I have to say we’re kind of obvious sometimes but…nevermind, I’m the innocent one. Or at least I try to be. Most times.

All in all, I’m slowly turning back into me again. It’s not a rare occurrence when I notice myself smiling for no reason. I don’t know if anyone else notices this but me, but maybe that’s a good thing. Things are beginning to gain more and more clarity. No pun intended. And those butterflies are back which is definitely a good thing.