has it been long enough yet?
To say I've been neglectful of this journal would be putting it kindly. It's been well over a month since I've written something of substance and while I can't promise that substance now, I can always attempt it. If it works out in my favor, great, and if it doesn't.. well I don't know. Just humor me.

I just remembered that I never got around to making one of those "one year" posts. Was I supposed to do that? I don't think it would say anything that hasn't been said before. My redundancy must get old. All it would have said was how important some of the people here are to me and how grateful I am to know them. Blah, blah, blah. It's been done before. Every one of you know who you are and hopefully I've told you at some point or another how much you mean to me.

A little more recently, though, a little anniversary passed and I almost didn't notice it. September 17th. It didn't dawn on me until I was about to fall asleep that night that it was the one year anniversary of the first time we kissed/began dating the first time around. Funny how I remember those things, isn't it? For a second, the entire scene began to play in my head, it was so clear and detailed and I had to smile to myself. It felt like such a long time ago, we're both so different now than back then it seems. I don't know, it was a nice memory and it made me smile. I looked over and saw him and I really was grateful that he was there, still with me.

But perhaps the real reason of this post is because today, October 4th, is the birthday of my very best friend in the world. Rach, I know I haven't exactly been around a lot and you don't know how sorry I am for that. I miss you so much and we're well overdue for a girls weekend or something. Last year I treated you to dinner at the Olive Garden and an all day spa treatment thing so I was thinking that it'd be a nice thing to do again sometime soon. I guess you could say a lot has happened that I could fill you in on ( and if you're thinking what I think you're thinking.. that's not it. ;) and plus, it'd be so great to see you again. We'll talk and make plans soon enough. But for now I just wanted to say that I love you and happy birthday.

Substantial enough? I think so.